Ludo

First of all, good morning, honey.

Since I couldn't sleep properly and my heart was racing, with high blood pressure, I read everything through carefully. I've been thinking about it. First of all, I have to tell you that this whole thing hasn't been roleplay for me for a long time, because it's gone way beyond that, which is also why I'm fighting for it so hard. If it were just roleplay, I would have ended it a long time ago. I like you beyond the roleplay, and I don't think you're fully aware of that yet, are you? That's why I'm telling you here and now. I've never said it so clearly before because I didn't want to hurt Nheela's feelings, but I don't care about her anymore after she trampled on our friendship. Back to us: I like you beyond a normal friendship, and I don't want to lose you. What's happening hurts, and it's affecting me both emotionally and physically. Do you know what you're doing to me? Do you know how I feel?

It's not all about Nheela; I'm here too, and I have feelings as well, not just her. Why do you think I'm being so stubborn? I'm not doing this for fun, but because I like you very, very, very much. It hurts me deeply how Nheela seems to have you under her thumb. She's possessive, and you don't even realize it. She only has to start crying, and you're there for her, but when I'm feeling down, you don't even ask how I am. Please do me a favor: if you truly care about me, think carefully about this whole situation. Because you're not just hurting me; you're hurting Reika too, and you mustn't forget that. Reika also sees that Nheela has you completely under her control. Everyone I talk to about this advises me to leave because what's happening is simply toxic and it's not good for me. But I'm stubborn, and I don't give up so easily. It breaks my heart to see how Nheela treats you. Sometimes I feel like she only sees you as her sex toy. Since she's no longer part of my life, I've also taken away her rights to the house. She's no longer welcome. I've decided I want nothing more to do with this woman.

If you truly care about me, let me know, or go back to her and let her continue bossing you around. All I can say is, "What Nheela wants, she gets." Think about that sentence—she has you completely under her thumb, and you don't even realize it.

And by the way, do you remember when Nheela told you that you should break up with Reika because she was never really there anyway? Even then, she was already trying to drive a wedge between you. Please don't let her win and really drive that wedge between you, and she's trying to drive that wedge between us now, too. It's not the first time Nheela has wanted to get rid of Reika. For Nheela, Reika doesn't even exist. Every time we've talked about the group, she's left Reika out of it, do you remember that? I hope you see this and I hope you realize what Nheela is trying to do. She wants to get rid of her competition, because that's what we are to Nheela, nothing more.

I thought long and hard about whether or not to write these lines to you, but I've decided to do it, even if you won't understand. Maybe one day you will. One day, when it's too late and the people who truly wanted you in their lives have left. Then it will be too late, and all because of one person? You're polyamorous and you should hate it when someone becomes possessive and overbearing towards you, so possessive that she even tried to punch me in the face. If she were polyamorous, and she definitely isn't, she wouldn't be so possessive and would give you more freedom. But she doesn't. Instead, she gets jealous just because she's not getting any attention. That's what I call self-centered. As long as Nheela is okay, I don't care about anyone else. I busted my ass for this woman when she needed me and was there for her, and what does she give me as thanks? She kicks my ass and tries to tear me down just because I really love you. I'm showing you all this in the hope that you'll open your eyes, which I doubt because you're too subservient to her. I'm supposed to be open and honest with you, and that's what I'm doing now.

I didn't think this would be such a long text, but everything has to be said. What happens next is entirely up to you. I'll gladly be there with open arms if you need someone, and I'm the last person who would ever abandon you—that's a promise from me to you. If I didn't care about you so much, I wouldn't have put so much effort into Reika. Reika means a lot to me too, and I'll never abandon her either. I'll continue to be there for her if she wants me to be, just like I will for you.

I'm asking you for one thing: please, for God's sake, talk to Reika and take care of her. She's the one who needs you the most right now; she has no one else to support her besides me. So please get off your ass and be there for Reika. Reika should be your top priority, not Nheela. Reika deserves all your attention, not me or Nheela. So please, be there for her
... I think everything has been said so far, and I hope that now you will wake up and understand that if this continues, I will eventually no longer be in your life, and depending on how you handle things with Reika, neither will she.

So think carefully about your next steps, and I hope you make the right decision and choose Reika. She's the one who's been by your side all this time and has certainly been there for you often enough.

So, I think that says it all, and as I said, my promise stands from now on and forever: if you really need me, I'll be there for you. I've grown very fond of you. However, if I see things continuing as they are, I'll leave and won't turn back unless you ask me to stay.

Dieser Beitrag wurde schon 2 mal editiert, zum letzten mal von Ted Walker am 02.12.2025 12:57.

Hi everyone,

So, we created this group because we don't want to do anything behind each other's backs anymore, and I don't want to talk to you alone, as the past has shown me that this never ends well.

I've read through your message several times, and there are some unnecessary accusations being made. It sounds to me like I'm constantly and deliberately messaging Ludo to distract him from you. You do realize I've only spoken to him twice, right? First, at the beginning of the whole date plan thing, which wasn't just in my interest, but I think it was in yours too, and then there was the thing with Paradise. You're making it sound like I message him every time, but I already explained to you and Selen how it was during our call.

Furthermore, I gather from your writing that you want to completely forbid Reika and me from having any contact with Ludo, as you so eloquently put it. Do you really want to forbid Reika, who has the least contact with him, from having any contact with him at all? I sometimes get the feeling you try to forbid a lot of things. And honestly, I personally won't stand for that or forbid any contact with him because I think it's nonsense to forbid it. And yes, I understood your writing, in case that question came up. However, your conditions are completely unnecessary.

However, I have the feeling that you haven't quite understood our rules, have you? That we all talk together and not everyone behind each other's backs. We want more openness, more communication with each other. Furthermore, your message gave me the impression that you haven't quite grasped that I belong to Ludo just as much as Reika, you, and Selen. At least, that's the feeling you're giving me with this message.

You know what Ludo wants, right? We were so close to reaching our goal, and now? I get the impression you want to ignore me and pretend I don't exist. We already told you that mutual acceptance is one of our conditions and is non-negotiable. That means you have to accept that I'm still here. You want to be accepted too, don't you? And I have accepted you, but you're making me feel like you haven't.

I think I've said everything that needs to be said for now. I hope you understand our situation, since things haven't worked out the way they have been, and they can't stay that way.

Dieser Beitrag wurde schon 1 mal editiert, zum letzten mal von Ted Walker am 30.12.2025 13:01.

Since Ludo asked me to be more precise, I'm now creating my own terms and conditions.

1. Everyone is listened to and no one is ignored. Because, I felt ignored yesterday. My concerns were not addressed.

2. The second condition is that everyone speaks for themselves and doesn't let others speak for them. I found that impossible yesterday and at least showed myself that Nheela prefers to send others.

3. Thirdly, it's not just about one person here, meaning no more "I," no more "I have but" anymore. Because I have the feeling, and not just since yesterday, that the whole world constantly has to revolve around just one person, but we are a group, and it doesn't consist of just one person.

4. Fourthly, reheating old things is a no-go for me now and leads to nothing but a bad mood, because the issue that was raised had already been resolved long ago and it was unnecessary to bring it up again, at least in my eyes.

So I hope I was precise enough now.

/dozeanywhere
/sitanywhere
/heels emotesync

Dieser Beitrag wurde schon 2 mal editiert, zum letzten mal von Ted Walker am 11.01.2026 02:42.